Paperwork

I'm not completely free of ambivalence about the relationship, but I am free of ambivalence about the marriage.

We started the divorce paperwork yesterday. My reason is almost all financial really. I don't want to be tied to him financially. He has a lot of medical bills piling up and he still likes to shop and spend money he doesn't have. I have becoming increasingly worried that somehow I could end up paying for his debts.

We have already agreed on everything that needs to be in the divorce agreement. Both of us want this to go smoothly without all sorts of debate. My lawyer says it should only take a few months to be complete.

I am really, really sad, but I know this is the right step to take.

It seems to me that I will be better able to let him be as he is if I don't have worries that I am going to be negatively impacted by things he does. The legal and financial risk he poses me as my husband is a true risk. A divorce will remove that risk.